this song keeps playing in my head "Waiting for the End" why do I choose this as my favorite song you might ask because i have gotten used to the goodbye I always know is coming like a calm serene moment before the big storm I prepare myself for the end why do i do this? I'm not sure but I'm digging deep within myself to figure it out A lot of things in my life are ending changing evolving and it's a scary place to be somehow I'm happy with all this change me the one who hates for things to change is happy. He makes me happy, happy like beyond any reason I don't doubt the way I feel for him I guess I doubt that I'm allowed to be this happy that I can find someone who likes me for me
I need to be a proper girlfriend whatever that means. I have to let myself be vulnerable enjoy being happy not over think it
This is a new path for me but I'm willing to fulfill my end of the bargain embrace the things I'm afraid to realize and just be It is going to happen all the things I want in life will happen just have to put in the time and effort to achieve my dreams
