penguins on the street

I said "Lilith look at me."
She didnt
She just went along the river
Infinite sparks in the air
"I can see them Lilith!" look at me
She didnt
She edged away

I walked back to the town
with a big burden in my shoulders
tears in my eyes
"You will not come back, will you?"

I remember the fish
I remember the pebbles
I remember every words of you

We have been passing through a path
She had pointed the way
towards a cave
It seemed dangerous and dark
filthy and dodgy
"Walk in!" she said.
I could not say I cant
She never let me do so
I said, I will.
And I saw her walking along the river
And saw the sparks in the air
I screamed "Where are you going Lilith!!?"
"...without me."
She mumbled some words
with the same rhyme
I call them Lilith's rhymes
I was paralyzed
while she was walking along that river
and the sparks were flying over my face

"Will you be back?!
Shall I wait for you here?"
She mumbled the same rhymes
same lines
same poems
"I am addicted to listen to you Lilith."

She mumbled
this time without rhymes
and lines
she said
"Stop fucking self-pitying
leave me alone
there is nothing I can do for you
only knowledge you need is that
everything is you
live your life to its extend
enjoy it."

Fuck the world Lilith
I love you
do i need a life to love you
if there is another surface i can stand on
take me there
if it is a cave i will walk in without fear
if it is a fountain i will listen to it with all my ears open
and all my voices silent

"Love the penguins on the street"
she said, "I love."

Since you left me
I am like a tourist on the earth
Nothing but a penguin on the street
Like an outsider
everything she has is in a small suitcase

will you be back
will you be back
will you be back
will you be back
will you be back
will you be back

She said
"You dont need me"

I dont need you
Never did
I love you
have always loved