is it worth saying again your name so common lately you would think every one has meet. They have never seen you and maybe if i died they might but even then with the scares i left you as a gift i doubt it but maybe you would go by my dads house. Is it worth saying again. All the things your inspired and wanted to be said. I learned so much from you that i never knew my only tears are bettier because i have denided from sharing this new life with you. I have been given a new gift a second chance. only one do i have like a shinny new idea all mine just for me and the person i want to share it with the most is dead. Might as well be for the last day i saw her it was to be the last look i gave her upon this earth. It is said that something calls the shots. And i got what i had longed for closeer closer than i had dreamed farther than i had never seen. a distance in lives bondes wripped apart and my heart left incomplete. She knows how i feel she forfitted her half too. and if we sit and talk to long we both cry for our lose. People are social so want to help i try to dry her eyes or offer some sholder of comfort. In the end its all that its been a dance with shadows dreaming they were you. You know i never got our dance that moment when i could look deep into your eyes, but at least one night over some wine i got to tell you a geniuen farwell.
Now with her by my side i do and say those think you had looked for in me. The question i have and what i miss is i once got your prestive on such things as this. but bye and bye and farwell and good bye your not here and i am left feeling empty. so i take her hand and look into her eyes i find the beauty that hidden inside and all the while and long the path i find myself damn iing god cause of what i did to us. I can never understand what it was that caused what it cause but you know better than i way before that last glance i had died.
Slowly returning and having to face what i have done i carry a pain and burdern that is my brand for my sins, that i dont think i will ever be with out. any way the quandery is do i string her along and prented its you or do i given in until the long end. or do i cry pure tears of honesty tell her my secerts and dig out my writing look her in the eye and kiss her check as i whisper good bye. or do i let it rotte or is there another way i have forgot.
All in good time and in the end as long as my intent is pure and i dont want to cause pain then what ever i say with cool claim kind words will be spoken the way there meant to be heard.
I only wish it was you i would be speaking to.
