walking to and fro
nervous body and sweating hands
heart beating too fast
anticipation cannot be suppressed
wanting to call you
but having this second thought
you might not answer,
you might not recognize me either
my body begins to shiver
as sweat in my forehead flows like a river
my cold hands are shaking
as i picked up the receiver
i must decide now or never
for i think this time you have to know
that my heart is a pleader
pulling all the last strength my body has
organizing my thoughts on how to speak to you at last
my knees are getting weaker by the second
but i have to decide at this instant
come on! i have to make this for once
call you and tell you that i miss you so much
having all the strength gathered
voice tuned into a pitch as if i'm not bothered
with all the might and prayers
i will tell you now that i love you so much
suddenly i realized,
even how eagerly earnestly i want
everything is impossible
for i DON'T HAVE your number,
even a digit of one!
m2b
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passerby_anduling